November 2017 has been hard on some people in my life, and many more I don’t know. My beloved Uncle Bill died, leaving my dad the only surviving member of his immediate family. A few days later my sixth grade teacher who was also my friend’s dad died. And just last night I heard the news that another friend lost her mother. All of this as the world around me died too; leaves crumbling to dust, humans gathered for prayer in churches and mosques destroyed by guns and bombs aimed by other humans.
I wrote this song in the midst of all that loss, all that death. Which is why, I’m sure, the song insisted on quoting the Song of Songs, “love is as strong as death.” I’m going to keep believing that, and aiming to live like it’s true.
Night falls in the city
All the little creatures scurry home to bed
I’m out on the sidewalk
Rehearsing all my hopes in humankindness
Cold November comes again
I hold my candle in the wind and feel everything breathe
Trees lean over houses
Stripped and swaying in diminishing dreams
I’m barely believing
Keeping life like mindless habit
Old November sighs and moans
I drone a lullaby for wonder joy and innocence
Take heart, my soul, my mind
Take courage armed with love
For love is as strong as death, (as death) as death
I still carry the memories
Of the moments that I never understood
I’m not looking for answers
Just a knowing look from some other face
Scarred November’s not surprised
I feel familiar in her eyes
Hard November bides her time
I feel the weight of all the years
In her nonexistent tears
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